Tuesday, October 16, 2012

Epilogue

you already read it
earlier tonight,
when i thought it.

reading is the wrong way.  writing it is the wrong way, sometimes - in a way.  sometimes not...
reading this i only wrote 2 months ago, i already regret part or all or 100% of the style.  i'm always changing, thus

"it's hard not to talk about it."  - chinese sages from chuang tzu

"everything has been repaid which was owed
on the back of the fishtruck which loads
as my conscience explodes."  - pope john paul 747

Tuesday, October 9, 2012

Dwellers of the Twilight Void Explained


In Tibetan Buddhism as well as many other holistic philosophies
different types of light have been observed…

1. earth to water                   :  mirage
2. water to fire                    :  smokiness
3. fire to wind                     :  fireflies in the sky
4. wind to consciousness            :  clear candle flame
5. gross consciousness to luminance :  clear moonlit sky
6. luminance to radiance            :  clear sunlit sky
7. radiance to imminence            :  clear pitch darkness
8. imminence to translucency        :  clear light of clear pre-dawn sky

When Alex and I were watching an old horror movie and saw a
grave stone that read:
"Here Lies a Dweller of the Twilight Void."

We laughed and Alex said, "huh, The Dwellers of the Twilight Void."
And instantly spontaneously and with full knowledge of this philosphy
I exclaimed,  "hell yeah!  that's it!!!"

I didn't bother to explain to him that the clear pre-dawn twilight
is the ideal of emptiness and void of consciousness that one needs
to transcend all and become a buddha.  You know it also makes you
Cutting edge, because you are always ready to change artistically
based on what feels like the freest, most un-defined thing.

Earth is genital feelings (good, bad, indifferent)
Water is belly feelings (science, definition)
Fire is volition feelings (art, emotions)
Wind is feeling feeling (heart, feelings themselves, consideration of feelings)
Consciousness is thought feeling (brain, awareness, observation)
Luminance is beginning of seeing thought electricity (early dai kensho experience)
Radiance is full sight of enlightenment electricity (intense dai kensho experiences)
Imminence is the apparent observable plane of this activity  (emptiness)
Translucency is the indestructible aether plane of all existence (neither empty, nor non-empty, nor empty or non-empty)

The hour is darkest right before the dawn.

The guys in this band all have the ability to think and create on the fly void of any preconceptions or lasting ideologies.  Strangeness and creativity at all costs is the ideal.  The consciousness of whether or not you have felt or heard this before.

Monday, October 1, 2012

Forgiving Nietzsche


Reading wikipedia about Fred I really liked his Slave/Master morality thoughts about history.  Even though he is wrong about faithlessness, the motherfucker has a sharp mind.  And like Robert Johnson sounding like Son House and Kurt Kobain sounding like the Wipers, this morning I made up a dinky postmodern ying-yang (sic) theory.

I have observed two forces in modern society when it comes to religion and i call these "natural religion" and its opposite "current code."  Natural Religion is like the taoist ideal of inaction, harmony with nature.. Mark Twain's common sense.

Current Code is more literalist interpretation of the current theological consensus of any given religion - what they've been teaching in church lately.

Current code is always more awkward than natural religion, yet without the high minded ideals of current code it seems effort is lacking towards "the betterment" of oneself and society as a whole.  The irony is that it was folks just speaking out of natural religion that led to the historical events from which current code is derived.  The problem is current code becomes overly ritualized to the point of thin faith in it (prodded cattle conformist attendees), or too much faith in it (radicals).

Thus because the prodded attendees and the the radicals make the current code look like folly, natural religion is looked at as a folly and that's when nihilist philosophies - atheism, blossom.

This harkens back to Chuang Tzu's "turning back" and the general disdain for big "Billy Graham" type preachers of their day like Confucius.  Babbling on about right and wrong instead of keeping their mouths shut they led to great hypocrisies of religious authorities like Catholic Priests who touch boys.

What I lament is that it seems from this perspective all religious action seems doomed to fail.  But I also want to say it seems the natural religion is never lacking anywhere you go in the world among any level of socio-economic class.  I guess "way" or "tao" is what it points at, common sense.  It is that feeling among a group of people that this certain feeling is what should be done in a particular situation.

But then these ways become subject to backlashes and camp-forming due to Freudian drives of revenge.  For example, just because someone doesn't like someone they will take the opposite stance of a take from natural religion in order fulfill their prides.  Yet it's this very error in the preceding sentences that leads one to wonder how one can even know one's grasp on the natural religion is the right grasp, or if someone else's is.  It evokes lao tzu's warnings that tao is forever vague and elusive like trying to grab a shadow.

So this process of eroding faith continues with atheism and doubt defeating natural religion because of the follies of current code until natural disasters or other tragedies rock people back to their faith in fear.  At which time they greatly embrace both current code and natural religion as their saviors and protectors and apologize for their years of lack of faith, then changing their minds of their mental history that they always believed and that they always will.



Though I scold Nietzsche for losing faith, I applaud him for naked awareness. Where there is an inquisitive and obsessively observant mind, buddhahood will take root no matter what one cares or knows about any religion, including Buddhism.